YJ: Until Tomorrow (One-Shot)
i look into your eyes
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Title: Until Tomorrow
Author: Michiko Kougai
Pairing: Yunjae :*
Genre: Romance, Fluff
Length: One shot
Summary: And, so Jaejoong wonders how Yunho will love tomorrow. :)

Tomorrow? <3Collapse )

Sembreak
i look into your eyes
michiko_kougai
Finally, I got the chance to update. WEE!!! 

Ugh.
aang aang
michiko_kougai
 I wonder sometimes if it's just me or some kind of external force is acting on whatever is happening lately on my college life. I have to say that I become so frustrated lately that no exam grade has ever satisfied me yet. I haven't top any exams I have for this semester unlike what happened on the previous ones. I really don't know what's getting on to me. It really makes me so frustrated and so angry. Sometimes, I really just have this thought to stop and shift to other courses. But, something behind my head keeps on telling me to continue, to not give up to Always Keep the Faith. 

My frustrations will get me nowhere. I have to revive myself and get stronger. I have to trust my capabilities and continue to learn more. I WILL NOT GIVE UP. HOPE TILL THE END. 

I learn something from college! :))
i look into your eyes
michiko_kougai
My MicroPara professor always tell us (my classmates) that its better to be hopeful rather than be hopeless. And, right now... that's what I'm holding on to.

"IT'S BETTER TO BE HOPEFUL RATHER THAN BE HOPELESS."

-- It's Keep the Faith, right? ... till the end. <3


Missing Them Like Crazy
i look into your eyes
michiko_kougai
 And I posted a fic since I just can't tolerate this longing for them. I declare myself... OFFICIALLY MISSING YUNJAE. :)

YJ: A Little Not Too Distracted (oneshot)
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Title: A Little Not Too Distracted
Author: Michiko Kougai
Pairing: Yunjae :*
Genre: Romance, Fluff
Length: One shot
Summary: So, Jaejoong lied about getting all too sleepy until Yunho started kissing him. 


"... You so want to love tonight." -- Yunho. Collapse )

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  And it always kept me hanging on why people always want their love to be reciprocated. 
  Now, it got me thinking why no one ever asked for an unrequited love.
  I think I finally found the answer.

  That moment that my heart beat a triple, I knew what it means.
   
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You are to me ♥
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You are to me is like a dream come true. The reality of the person I hold close to my heart where I was never given a chance to see. You are my escape to the fantasy that I wanted to live. You are the next thing closest to what I really wanted. But, that thought changed when I started to know you. The person that I see in you from the first day I’ve learnt your name disappeared and now, I only see the real you.

                You were so far different from the person I wanted you to be. You are such a charming man that I can’t help to pull myself from you.  You hold in you the ability to draw me close as if putting me on a spell and never planning to break it. I clung on you for the dear friendship we have and thought that was all I ever wanted.  

We started talking on the phone and have endless exchange of mails. I learn more about you and I grow fond of everything you tell me.

 I smile to sleep as I read the lyrics of the songs I wanted you to sing. Those became my lullaby that accompanied my sleep deprive nights. Sometimes I wonder would it be too selfish to ask if one day I’ll be able to hear your voice instead of just reading them. Nevertheless, those moments I hold close and never will I ever forget.

You are sweet. I wonder if you know that. You hold such power in your words that whatever you tell me, you do it. It works in reverse too. You follow whatever I tell you and it worries me why you do. You trust everything I tell you as if it’s a written rule of your book.

I asked you once why you call me differently. It was never my first name to begin with. I got curious and that get the best of me. You told me you respected me. I wondered what respect you have for me.  You said I was different, so much different from the other people around you, much different from the girls that surround you. I kept quiet then knowing that’s all I ever get from you. You walked in my pace and said that you dreamt to have an older sister. I looked at you and I hope the disappointment in my eyes was not evident. I hope you’re dense enough not to feel the pain I have and not see the forming tears I have at the corner of my eyes. And yes, what I asked for came true. Right at that moment, I vowed that I’m going to let go this feelings and treat you as a brother.

Days passed. We never stop the exchange of mails and random phone calls. We became closer than I could ever imagine. We shared secrets. Secrets I never thought we could be sharing. My heart trembled in fear that I may go back to those days that I see you more than just a brother. And, it did. My heart flutters by merely the sound of your name and it feels as if I suffocate from the air that I breathe.

The way you treat me changed too. You became too curious of the things in my life, asking “Who” and “What” all the time. You started doing things that make me stop breathing. You became too gentlemanly for my very own liking that I started to admit to myself that my feeling of likeness deepens and that I still fear of falling. You do things that no ordinary guy does unless it was someone they cherish or someone they love. Those actions started to confuse me and make my heart ache.

Even now, as I write this crazy essay about you, I wonder what you were doing. I haven’t felt your presence from the last week we’re together. Are you avoiding me? Are you confused just the same about what you’re feeling and decided to just run away? I hope you settle what you feel. I’ll wait until next week. If ever I didn’t feel you. I’ll get over you. Learn to live again like before. I will live forgetting that smile, that voice, your actions and all the stories you’ve shared. I will live in fantasy once again, as if you’ve never crossed my life. As if you never ever existed.

I’ll tell you once. You are a friend to me, a brother, and always someone who I will remember. The first one I really like for who you are and for who you are not.


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In love again~
aang aang
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 They make me wish I have a Love like theirs. //Kyaa// Pardon my fangirl fantasy! GO KWONIN //HEARTS//


Push and Pull (My KwonIn Love)

Kwon:

                Looking at you from a distance instantly makes my heart tremble.  The smile in your face as your eyes met mine crumbles me to my knees. I rushed to your side and placed my arms around you.  Shortly, you giggle in reply. The warm feeling inside me and the sound of your laughter make me love you one more time.

Gain:

                I closed my eyes as your face neared mine, your breath against my face tickles every time. You kissed my head and wished you’d do my lips, slowly, slowly, now. I stole a moment and look at you, your face full of light as you whispered, “I love you.” The kiss long forgotten and now my heart danced with words that you only have the power over me.

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Pissed.
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I know what's respect. And damn, I know how different it is from LOVE.~
 

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